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Wearing my heart on my chest: dating, new relationships, and the reconfiguration of self-esteem after breast cancer

Authors

  • Darya Kurowecki,

    1. Department of Psychology, York University, Toronto, ON, Canada
    Current affiliation:
    1. Faculty of Medicine, University of Ottawa, Ottawa, ON, Canada
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  • Karen D. Fergus

    Corresponding author
    1. Department of Psychology, York University, Toronto, ON, Canada
    2. Patient and Family Support, Odette Cancer Center, Sunnybrook Health Sciences Center, Toronto, ON, Canada
    • Correspondence to: Department of Psychology, York University, 4700 Keele Street, Toronto, ON, Canada M3J 1P3. E-mail: karen.fergus@sunnybrook.ca

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  • Portions of the manuscript were presented at the Canadian Association for Psychosocial Oncology Annual Conference and Canadian Psychological Association Convention in 2012.

Abstract

Objective

This study investigated women's experiences of establishing an intimate relationship with a new partner after breast cancer diagnosis and treatment.

Methods

Fifteen breast cancer survivors, who were either actively dating or in a new intimate relationship that began post-diagnosis, participated in semi-structured interviews. Interview transcripts were analyzed using the grounded theory method.

Results

The analysis yielded Wearing My Heart on My Chest as the core category with three underlying categories: (1) Losing and Regaining Self and Bodily Esteem; (2) Taking the Leap: Dating and the Obligation to Disclose; and (3) Reclaiming of Self through the New Relationship. The categories refer to the experience of profound vulnerability invoked by the history of breast cancer and the act of verbally and physically revealing this past to a new intimate partner. Disclosure entailed a series of successive ‘tests’ of the new partner for his ability to accept the physical and psychological ramifications of breast cancer, with the resulting relationship becoming a vehicle through which women regained self-esteem.

Conclusions

The process of dating and starting a new intimate relationship had the potential to restore women's self and bodily esteem previously diminished by breast cancer. The reconfiguration of self-esteem following breast cancer is thus experienced as an ongoing process that begins with diagnosis and continues well into the new relationship. Copyright © 2013 John Wiley & Sons, Ltd.

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